Losing people is NOT FUN

So back in May when my friend passed away I wrote a few different things with regards to Death & loss and what not. Sort of a way to cope and what not. However when I was writing those things in May I truly had no clue I would be referencing it so much afterwards.

I learned today that a Man I consider to be my Grandfather passed away yesterday. Mind you he was in his 80's and had an incredibly long & wonderful life - Living to see not one but two Great Grandchildren (3 if you count his step grandson) and luckily he was able to meet his Great Grandson in the fall and catch up with his Great Grand Daughter. In the end this is what he wanted - he more or less choose this time to leave us. But it's still very hard as he was a part of my life  for so very long. I became fast friends with his Grand Daughter when we were both five (We are 20 days apart in age thus both 23) and he has been in my life since. So that's what 18 years? My math is foggy tonight; my head is foggy tonight.

I really had high hopes for 2015 after such a really difficult 2014.
I had to come face to face with fire and deal with the after math of having had a small House fire. This was followed by the death of my Young friend (only 20) in May which proceeded my father ending up in Hospital for a month & going without a bathroom upstairs for 3 months. Well my father was in Hospital he became friends with his Hospital Mate (Like a roomate) Karl who shared his room for like 95% of their stay. Naturally we befriended Karl who didn't have many friends however he sadly passed away in July.
In the last few days of 2014 I had high hopes, 2014 was nearly done. I was ready to say good bye to loss & sadness. And then on New Years Eve I found out my cousin passed away.

Now the weekend of her funeral (I wasn't able to attend, my mom got to go I stayed home to look after my dad) literally the day after I loss My Grandfather Ken. So brilliant way to start 2015 hey.

Anyway
So anyway I will probably be posting lot's of my previous thoughts about my friend/loss/grief/dealing with death and what not...

The odd comfort of my cousin's passing is that her passing was a transition from Pain to being Pain free. She is in a place where her body is now her own and no longer plagued with cancer. However now it's her loved ones that are experiencing pain - the pain from losing her.